Every Heart - Sara Haze

Every heart has a story to tell...so find the love inside yourself.

I Just Don't Know How

I am a worrier. I am constantly worried about something. It may not show on my face or in my actions but I always feel it. I honestly try to hide it so no one asks me about it. I don't like to talk about things I am worried about because I don't know why I'm worried, or I don't know how to resolve it.

I love two things. And I don't know what to do about it. It has gotten worse over the past month. And it is so hard. I am dying inside. The decision I have recently made was hard. And heartbreaking. And its not just me that its hurting.

I am told daily to pray about things i need help with...but right now I dont feel that it will help..almost like its to the point of no return. I'm not getting anything from Him lately. I don't know how or what to ask. Or how to worship him. I know that He could help...I just dont know how to...do anything. I'm completely lost.

And I dont know how this song correlates to what I'm saying...all I know is that it makes me feel.....something.

Guess who's an idiot

Me! I, in a rush to get to the Donut shop before work, grabbed my straightener and my fingers got burnt onto the hot metal plates.

Also, yesterday one of my co-workers smashed my finger in between a heavy box and a sharp corner of a shelf. It scraped off some of my pinky cuticle and some of my skin above that. It was awesome. I love her so so much.

So i have 3 band-aids on right now. Adorable, but still tragic.

Aaaaand I'm still an idiot. Boo.

♥ Nee Nee

Lost.

Making a decision is really hard. Especially when you have two options that you love. And the options are completely different. I like the option I have now. More than a little. But I also have another option still lingering on..Still there to remind me. How do you make a decision? How is it possible to please everyone and hurt no one, including yourself? And what is even best for me????

Like I said, I love both of these options. And with each option is something laid behind it that is also good. I have things that I want to do with my life....I just don't know what they are completely yet. So...I guess I should figure that out before I make any other decisions...I don't know. I'm just completely lost in what I really want...but also in what I really NEED. And which will turn out like it is proposed to be.

Bridesmaids...

Talking to Brock on Skype last night I heard Nellie get up and then go back to bed. Shortly after I heard her giggling. NONSTOP. I almost went up and checked on her but thought that it was a good thing she was laughing and not screaming or crying...This went on for almost an hour!! Every little while I would hear her laugh and say "OH!" hahaha ohmagosh it was SO FUNNY!!

Come to find out, she had downloaded "Bridesmaids" on her itunes on her laptop and she was laughing at the movie!!! Boo. Haha

JUST FOUND OUT!!!

That you can make beds with a fish spatula...