The Month of November.

This is just a little recap of a verrrrrrrrry trying month.

The fire was on November 1, 2011.

This is after Nellie & Kenner got there...mostly put out. I was too dumbfounded and scared to take pictures when it was really big. I wasnt sure I wanted to remember it that well...

This is all of the stuff we got out of the apartment.

So so sad.

Different colors in the carpet where some boxes had been sitting.

Our tub.

Ours is the second floor.

The fire originated on the second floor where there..isn't a second floor anymore. Ours is right behind that apartment.

My bedroom...

Glad that chapter is over..still getting the aftershocks..but overall i'm glad that its over. And i'm grateful for my sister. Every. Single. Day.

♥ ........

Nee Nee.

Call the surgeon, mend the pieces....

its the wrong time...

Well THAT was a CRAP idea.

Feeling like crap lately. I just feel so down and out of place. I don't know what i'm doing. Since the apartment fire, I just feel completely wasted of all energy and excitement. Any want to do anything. if i had a man cave...(assuming i'd be a man of course) i would go and just be there (like a man.) I feel this is my lowest lowest low. Between the fire, and boy drama, and work drama, and church drama, and family drama....i just don't know what to do. And i don't feel like i can count on anyone without being judged, or told what to do, or given that look of..."yeah that was a CRAP idea on your part. what are you DOING!?" Not like i don't think that to myself every day. I just don't like being told what i'm doing wrong in my life. I already know. And I am going to listen and take your advice into account because i care about your opinion. Obviously enough that it is affecting my decisions good and bad! but you cant be mad if i don't do it your way.

I honestly don't know how i get out of bed some days at this rate.